天

无尽的思念，像潮水抹去我的记忆。

记忆的根端 却没有一丝 哪怕是一丝 的缠绵


真是 天若有情天亦老，人间正道是沧桑啊


要真是这样


灭世也未必不是一种选择，如果罪人死后还有安宁可言的话。


记忆 回来！！

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送给
走过的
正在走的
还不曾走的

不散的宴席
永远的回忆
无法赎罪的错

我好想再说一句对不起
希望你能极乐往生
开心的事我会永远记得

走好小妮
一生的好友，超

June/1997——20/dec/2009

You know what I found so funny?
That was the first english post on chao's blog!

anw, enough of me wasting his space =)

I learnt my lesson...

Thanks Chao for letting me vent my anger on his blog =)

Ughh, I'm sooo upset and annoyed at the same time
I can't believe a close friend of mine would just break our friendship like this
First, he tells me that I haven't been making the initiative to start a convo with him and that he's always the one making the effort in our friendship

Then, he tells me that my relationship with him having been ruining his relationship with his gf
The very reason I try not to even ring him or sms him first
is b/c I don't want his gf to think that I have any ulterior motive
and then he blames me for the one-way friendship

Like w-t-h do you want me to do?
I'm always at the frickin losing end
Whatever I do will not make thing better
and if I don't do anything
Well guess what?
The problem is still there

I don't even know how it arised
I'm left there clueless, staring at that sms
thinking to myself how the hell it end up like this?

I'm not upset about the crap that happen
b/c I understand how his gf would feel and stuff
so I'm not blaming anyone or directing any responsibility to anyone
Besides, I understand his situation and as a good friend of his,
I want to wish him happiness

but what irritated me is the fact that
I'm always someone people can come close with and chuck me aside when they're done
and happily thinking that I would be fine
then try coming close to me again after they settle their problems
Who the heck do you tink I am?
Someone who can be easily taken advantage of?
Someone you can come and then go
I'm pretty PETTY

This situation of mine is not the first, but second time
It's not all that great when you treat them as your really close friend
and they treat you the same way
Then, tell you to piss off when they find themselves a gf
I actually not that angry about this relationship
because I know that regardless of what, we still treat each other as true friend
but this remind me of the first time I experience such

I'm the first one to say that I want to give you space with your gf and then, you're the one who made the decision to break the friendship
Well, that's hurt
but it's fine with me
I don't need that kind of friend who could give up on our friendship that easily
You utterly ignored me at the start
then after a month or two,
You start ringing me and smsing me
What the heck do you want from me?
I don't want history to repeat itself
when next time, you tell me that you don't want to be my friend again

How can one be so cruel?
After all these years that our friendship was built on,
you simply come and tell me to end this all....
I don't think that's the type of friend I want or want to be...

I wouldn't mind being ditched for a while till you settle everything
but I definitely mind when you tell me to end it all
becos that's just shows that our friendship was nothing to you at all

One thing I have learnt is don't make close guyfriends who has gf
or when they start having gfs, well, put your hopes down
and don't think that everything will be the same as b4
becos it ain't...

I simply here to rant and I don't care what you think because that's simply how I feel